One of the 1st draws i made for you

We were always good friends and one time you asked me to draw something sweet for you and i made one draw very similar to this one. A few days later i made this for my storage pile cause i really like what i have done for you. At this time i felt nothing for you, you were just a cute girl that laughed at my crappy jokes, by the way i am very happy for being friend with you again my greatest fear was to loose you forever.

Dark Side I

This drawing has a few years not many and as i said before i am fascinated by the dark side inside me i just wish it come out every now and then i am tired of being a good guy.

Cute xD

I draw this 2 cute little kids cause my mom asked for a logo for the day care center where she works. But they got another work from the web :(

Peste/Plague

This drawing was made when i decided to make a Comics Book about Apocalypse whitch i never made and this was supposed to be one of the 4 knights, Plague or Peste in portuguese.

I made the legs to short

I was really sad the idea of loosing one of the most important person in my life... i dont know i wish she killed me than just ignoring me. Fortunelly as i am writing this i can say that our friendship we regaining strenght. We might never be lovers like i wished but i can't loose her friendship she is way to much important in my life for me to loose her as a friend. So i am a bit more HAPPY lately, i am happy that i didn't lost a very special friend.

I always like Graffities...

I actually love graff's but never learned to make them because never liked the idea of running from police officers, i hate that i all my rebelion never leaves the paper, wouldn't you guys like to torch some cars  break some windows throw some stones at officers just to show you are fcked up with your government... I hate being nice

Bad weather

Not much to say we had some really bad weather in the last few weeks and i made a few drawings related with bad weather cause i get upset from being locked at home. However in the last few days its been warm and sunny but its cold during the nifght very cold last night was 3,5º C. It's almost 14:00 here time for coffee and a nice walk in the sun.

It's hard to get titles for every post xD

It's kind hard to explain all my ideas but sometimes i dream stuff other times i just imagine and i have to draw it. Basicly yi draw what comes to my mind even that the drawing doesnt have any particular meaning its just an old drawing that i think it's pretty cool, I dont imagine men as angels and women as demons but women make men reveal the best and the worst side of the us probably women feel the same about men.

Walk away

 

I wish the answer had been a yes unfortunelly was a NO and she turn her back complete ignoring me for a week or so, feelings are so useless... 

You know what's really cool, writing this bullshit here actually makes me feel better. I guess will continue posting stuff. 

I got 100 viewers xD

Summer of 2005

Me and my friends rented a house on Armação de Pêra, was a great summer lots of beer and we met a huge group of young fun people like us unfortunelly i gave all those the drawings i made at the bitch during the day to those people and i only got this one that is the ugliest i made and noone wanted it.

Me and Me again...

A lame attempt to draw myself looking at this picture, for some reason i don't do portraits. Anyway was fun doing it altought i think i look a lot better in photo xD, the image behind me is a friend of mine private studio that we painted when we were kids.

Just a nasty girl

This drawing should be like 2-3 years old, was a point in my life i was tired of listening people saying you only draw demons why don't you do something different and i started doing girls/women now i do men and boys also but seems i lost my skill to draw demons... maybe i need to restart doing demons, and i know it looks like a arm is missing but its just covered with the body xD

My hometown castle

The ruins of my hometown castle in Torres Vedras, i was in a bar with a pic of the castle i started drawing it and has i am not good drawing building and landscapes i decided to put a dragon and a medieval soldier to look more EPIC xD, this is also a old drawing....

Heart transplantation

Wish this could be done to fix emotional problems... But altought my hearts pumps faster for you it's all in my head. There is no wound that time don't heal right, but the scar will be always here for you to remind what you have been through. There should be a reset button for feelings "Are you sure you pretend to reset this feelings? Press (Y)es or (N)o" and then you get "No feelings detected please insert new feelings".

What if you see in the mirror come to life...

This a very old drawing. When i see my old drawings i feel happy to see that mys drawing skills improved a bit but still like the idea behind. It's like dark side of me coming out of a mirror, releasing all my demons.and fears.

Ninja Girl

Not mutch to say i just like manga ninjas... i would love to make my manga one day but need to work on a story... I wanted to do a enemie but i had to leave so no enemie on drawing xD

Bush knocked down the towers

This draw as you people might guess was made in September eleven, i woke up turn on the TV and 5 minutes kater second plane hit the other tower. I feel great sorrow for all that lost their lifes there and their families. You have time see this Documentary Loose Change 2nd edition i would like someone to prove this documentary is wrong cause what shows in this documentary shows the world maybe we are chasing the wrong terrorists.

Its a very old drawing also was made after my 1st bight university party with a huge hangover. I remember this morning like it was yesterday you were just to wasted, you were just a girl in croud it took me a while to see all that you were and hopefully still are... took a entire week for your neck pain to pass, and i know there wasn't no broken glass and liquour on the floor. Tequilla is bad for your neck. Good old days wish they return with less alcohol off course. I already said i miss you. Don't forget to visit me if you come to Portugal again.

Don't break it...

Not much to say she took mine and didn't gave me her heart. If feelings were physic i would be dead cause it sure feels like it... all this numbness seems like i am a zombie. I real wish i had a solution to my pain but seems
i will have to wait for time and it's weak healing powers to solve it.

A soldier from hell...

This is a really old draw... lately i can't draw dark stuff but i still love some of my old demons. I really like villains in movies. I love darth vader and darth maul plus i am ahuge fan of the allien movies i think the allien its the most terrifying creature that ever show in cinema. It's like my worst nightmare coming to life.

A dream...

The characters i draw have nothing in common with us... well there aren't no us after all. I just dream with this day, and it's never going to happen. I hate saturdays, i hate being atheist i wish i had some kind of afterlife belief it would make so much easier to put a bullet in my brains but when you believe this is existance is all that you have suicide is not an option. You just suffer and hope that someday the pain will stop.

An old draw

Well i have a twisted mind and sometimes i imagine weird stuff like this. It is not supposed to be Jesus or to have any religious meaning. It´s just that sometimes u get a draw in your head and u have to do it and i had to do this, i wanted him to be tied to a tree but cross or so much simpler to draw.

I gave mine to you

At this point of my life i stoped caring about other people might think, i just care about what i feel. I feel you nothing else, 24/7. I dont care people laugh at my foolish love for you, i just feel sorry for them cause they probably never felt love like i do although you reject me what i feel for you worths all the pain of rejection.
The message above it's just and outflow of my feelings... now what can i say to you (this is so cool, talking like i have a lot of subscriber/visitors i got 1 subscriber and 30 visitors... and the best part is that everyone can see that)
About the drawing itself what can i say.... it has no heart like me cause i gave it to someone but she broke it,  i wish i have read the instrutions manual so i could fix my heart quicker but i honestly think i will need a heart transplant cause this one will never forget her.
I real want to talk today it's 05:00 here, do you people believe typing this bullshit actually makes me feel better than drawing... when i draw something related to me only intensifies what i feel for good or for bad, but writing it here feels like i am screaming all my feelings out loud and that is so relaxing.
See you again in 8 hours or so i hope i sleep well today, if you read all this text thank you for listening me.

Guess where the flowers ended...

I actually got the flowers walked all the way to her home i heard the voices inside but never ringed the bell... I don't think i could take another no, i just turned back looking for the nearest dumpers and that's where the flowers went. Anyway i gave her something much better than flowers and she broke it don't think flowers she would react different to flowers. I was told to stay away till she misses me... i have been away from her 3weeks and all i think of it's her and i am very affraid that she forgets me for good. I just wish we could still be friends at least... i had so much fun with her. I cry like a baby in that day. Better days will come at least i hope so. I just lover her so much that sometime soon i have to hold on to all my strength and i will go hear NO again. If i stop trying being happy the sadness is all that will remain no matter how much beer i drink the joy of being high on alcohol always ends up when i get to bed, i have cried a river of tears but i dont mind if i have to flood the world for her.
Yes i have one leg taller than the other... just joking. i just realize the wrong anatomy when i end the draws and i raise my head to look at what i have just done... I draw with my head to close to the paper and No i dont need eyeglasses. Can i get some likes and comments please?

Ashamed

I should have cut the image to much paper left on this one its also a very old drawing i am very sorry but i rarely date my stuff and so now i dont know when i made it exactly.

How i feel most times, traped in a corner and ashamed because of the huge failure that i am.

Pierce my heart

This didn't actually happened but was basicly how i felt... sometimes i wish i was a machine and have no feelings. Hurts so much to be alone.

A draw for a tattoo for my 1st girlfriend...

 I made this draw to my 1st girlfriend when she was bout to make 20, her birthay is on 20 of April so she tought it would be cool... i was supposed to do when similar when i got to 25 ( my birthay is 25 of February) but we ended up before i turn 25. If by any chance you see this i want to say i lost your contact and that i miss you, your kindness and i neverfound another girl who liked astrophysics...and when you come back to Portugal come visit me i still live in the same place so i am easy to find.

Where i would like to be...

This one i made just a few hours ago... Some quiet place inside my mind, a place to forget. Forget what you feel... Wish the small river near my home wasn't poluted. Life sucks.

One of my oldest draws

What to say? I love demons and in my deepest wishes i would like to be one...
Unfortunelly i am just a commom mortal like the rest of us, and a good guy that would like to be bad but i can´t... MarBurG i's the name i usually use to play videogames, its the name of virus thats causes hemorrhagic fever it's quite deadly, and virus are baptized from where they stroke 1st and this one showed up in a German town called Marburg... It also the name i like to call the darker me, my inner demon that wants to torch churchs and shoot whoever gets on my way. No worries it's way deep imside  i am a peaceful guy

Starting up...

As i said i like to draw and i draw like a lot... I have a huge pile of drawings since i was 20 years old i am 30 now so you cant even imagine how much paper i have here. Just finished instaling my scanner and geting ready to start scanning all these draws. I wish i knew where my mom stores my old draws from when i was just a child would be fun to share them with you people.
1st of all i am not satanic and i have no religion you might say i am a atheist however i am fascinated by religions and all kind of supernatural beliefs.
Hope to be showing some of my draws really soon.